Highway Divided August 29, 2006
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Last night Gaybigans divided the highway into two. Egay,
Aris and I are on Fame the Lupo, watching V for Vendetta as planned. The rest
of GBs are right across the street, also drinking.
I felt something thick is in the air right after I arrived. I
knew there was a small fight between friends last night. And maybe it is
because of that incident there’s some coldness within the group. I felt sarcasms
in the words of a friend when I crossed the street to join Egay and Aris. That
afternoon we planned to spend the night watching movies over some beers. And
I’d stick to the plan.
I wonder how long will the highway be divided… I’m crossing
my fingers that it’ll be soon.
I did a terribly awful thing. But what I’m supposed to do. I
was caught in the middle. His father asked me a favor to download an
application form. And he doesn’t want to apply for that. But his father kept on
asking me about it and left me without option. So I downloaded a copy of the
form and handed it to his father, expecting that they two gonna talk about that matter and leave me out of
the picture. But it turned out the other way around. I’m very sorry about it. You know I’m just scared of
your father and you know that I don’t want to meddle with your issues. I’m truly sorry for
what I have done.
The Feeling of Acceptance and my Reason for Giving August 28, 2006
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I’ve felt welcomed and accepted for these past two nights. They have shown me respect and hospitality and I am very thankful for that. It’s like I have been given their blessings.
I’ve spent dinner with him. And I even obliged to his father’s request on helping her sister running the store cause he’s sick. I brought him citrus fruits cause of it’s good for his colds.
Moving on, last night after dinner with him, I followed Zesar, Egay, Wilson and Aris in a local KTV Bar. Had a couple bottle of beers. We moved to the local bar, had another couple of beers. Strolled to Lian, bought some more booze and headed to a Egay’s "resthouse" and drank again. I’m so sober I didn’t knew what happened next. I got home 9:30 this morning. And I have a terrible hangover even after I slept more and showered. I only eaten soup and mashed potato till now. And I know that later I’m gonna drink again because of some misunderstanding.
I give cause I want to give, it’s no strings attached for me. That’s how I show friends especially people that are close to my heart that I really love and care for them. And you know what, they don’t ask for it the things I give them, I just want them to have it. People always misintrepret that when I gave some friends something. Especially when I’m out dining or having fun with some guy friends and I pay for the bill. They always have preconception that were partners. Why it is because I am gay? Fuck those who thinks so. Put this in narrow mind of yours - Most of the friends I hang out with are straight guys. Why? Cause they are fun to be with cause they are spontaneous, fuss free, broad minded and adventurous and most important is that they treat me with respect. And maybe the reason your judgemental is you do not see me as they see me. And or you’re just jealous. So don’t make any issues about it.
PIna Pares and Small Circle, BIG Circle August 25, 2006
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I can now use Raven but I still need to bring it to Balayan to have it checked by the mechanic and ask about insurance. Aris brought Raven at the motor shop the other day to fix the foot brake and had the mechanic check for any damages. But I stil feel it needs a lot of repair.
I just got my salary a day early so yesterday Aris, Toffee and I went to Balayan for dinner at Pina Pares. I love their sisig and tanigue steak. Here are some pixs.
It was later followed with some beers (talk about some, we ended up being drunk) at Kozy Korner with Kuya Egay. I wondered what will happen if others suddenly came and saw us. I bet they gonna think we’re the new circle of friends. Small circle, BIG circle. Hahaha.
ANAY August 24, 2006
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This is an original composition by my friend’s band.
He messaged it to all of GayBigans.
Sarcastic ain’t it Zesar? Hahaha
ANAY
by Slave of Silence
*
Ang bango ng salita
kapag kayo’y magkaharap
Ngunit sayong likod
may iba nagaganap
Chorus:
ANAY KA!
Magkaibigan ang turingan
pag kayo’y magkaharap
Ngunit sa yong likod
ay saksak ang matatanggap
repeat chorus
repeat *
repeat chorus 2x
I just wondering how it sounds like. I just like the lyrics. I can’t wait for next month, he inited us for their gig in Manila.
I wonder if all of us will be there.
Happy Birthday Agnes August 24, 2006
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Happy Birthday Agnes.
Hope you’d like the cake. 
Sorry I haven’t got the courage to personally give it to you.
Text Twist August 23, 2006
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I love the game Text Twist.
I usually play it in a friend’s laptop. Especially when there’s nothing to do. It’s better than doing nothing plus it tests my vocabulary.
Yesterday I challenged a friend to beat the highest score in the game. If he tops the score within 2 hours I own him a free dinner but if he fails he’ll buy me dinner instead.
It’s not even two hours when he break the top score. And at the end he nearly doubled the previous top score.
I tried to top his score last night but I failed. I want to beat his score not to prove I’m better than him but to challenge myself.
I love challenging myself. It’s like pushing myself to do better what I am capable of.
Arrgh, I still owe him his dinner.
Accident August 22, 2006
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I had a motorcycle accident early Sunday morning. And it’s my second accident in a motorcycle. Well, this one’s different from the previous one because this time I’m the one driving.
I was driving back to the local bar after a friend and I dropped a friend home. I am on my bike and she on her bike. It started to rain so we were driving a bit fast. I was singing on the top of my lungs while driving but I can’t remember if it is "pangako sa ‘yo" or it is "ikaw" cause I’m really sober that time. Then all I remembered was I was being helped by my friend to stand up and asked if I were okay. I frisked my body and after feeling there are no broken bones I grabbed my PDA and messaged someone important to me about what happened.
It was raining hard when a couple friends came to help. They were all frantic while on the other hand I’m calm. The friend who helped me went hysterical after she saw I had blood running from my forehead. We were all soaking wet by that time. One friend quickly searched my head for where the blood is coming from. He found out that it was only minor abrasions on my scalp and it’s nothing serious. They asked me if I’m ok, what happened and they wanted to bring to me to the hospital. I said I’m Ok and I just wanted to go home and sleep.
I was soaking wet when I got home. I’m so tired so after I removed my wet clothes I fell asleep in the nude. I was thinking that if I have any deep wounds, it might stick to the cloth and will be a trouble. Better to sleep nude rather than going the trouble of seperating my clothes with the wound.
I woke up early because it was cold so I quickly slip on a pajama and a shirt. I just replied my friends’ messages telling that I’m okay. After that I doze off again. The next time I woke up my mom was standing at my bed. She didn’t noticed my abrasions at first, she was there because I left a pool of water at the doorstep when I came home last night. And then she saw my arms, and asked if I’ve had another bike accident again. I just nod and then told her I’m okay and it’s just minor abrasions, no broken bones or whatsoever and there’s nothing to worry about. But she started her tirade about getting myself a bike, if it was not for father she wouldn’t agreed at the first place, that I usually drink, blah blah blah. To cut her I told her that just be thankful this is all that happened and I’m still alive and I just needed a rest. Well, that helped, the last thing I remembered was she was beside me before I slept again.
My mom gave me quick shower, as I requested her cause my left shoulder hurts. Afterwards she treated my abrasions. I ate a quick meal then off I go to the usual hangout. Hahaha! I met some friends there. They were saying that I still have the strength to wander around after all that happened. Hahaha. I just don’t want to ruin my day because of such petty thing. And you know what, I have all this energy and much much more because I find the energy to do all things and more because of someone .
Sunday night we were at a resto, we were talking about what happened. It was kinda weird. I was so sober I didn’t remember a few things I have done back at the bar. I was like, "really? Did I do that?" It was so so weird like we were talking about someone else and not me. I didn’t remember the 2nd swig of tequila I drank. And I didn’t remember I had body shot the tequila with someone. I didn’t remember going to the stage getting the microphone from the vocalist. But I do remember myself playing the tambourine. I didn’t remember that a couple of friends volunteered to drive me home and I refused. It was like a had an amnesia because I drank almost half of the bottle of Gran Matador, 2 shots of tequila and three bottles of red horse.
Infering from the looks of the damage my bike sustained, my footbrake hit a rock then the bike slide on the opposite direction and I rolled on the pavement. My bike has it’s footbrake is bent inwards and the the footrest is out of it’s usual position
because of the force of impact. I was told I was damn lucky my foot
haven’t got crushed. My left front flasher glass was shattered, the left handle is slightly bent inwards, the
left rider’s footrest is also displaced and the black handle bar for
the rider has scratches and forced inwards all resulting from the
slide after I hit the rock. My bike got minor scratches on the bottom flarings which can not easily seen. The scratches that are distinguishable are near the shattered flasher and the black handle bar. I’ll post pictures of it when I have time. And don’t worry about the bike. I took almost all the scratches. Hahaha.
A friend accompanied me to a "hilot" yesterday to ease the pain in my left shoulder. I tried to get an x-ray but the radiologists told me that I don’t need one because I can freely move my arms and from the looks of it I don’t have any broken bones. It’s just bruised because of the sudden impact. And I’m back at work today, I’m expecting a visitor for the main campus to have an ocular visit on my library.
Seems like my second brush with death didn’t dampen my free-spirit.
It didn’t at all. In less than 12 hours after the accident I’m on the road again, rampaging! Hahaha.
I did missed a lot of things (and also feelings that I should felt) that night because of the accident. Things that I know is far more gratifying than being an ass and a sober that night. But I also learned, felt and experienced a lot of things from what happened.
CARPE DIEM!
Spontaneity August 19, 2006
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I spent last night in Balaytigue out of sheer spontaneity. It started as a joke between me and a friend but we ended up being there. Hahaha.
It was thrilling. We were just two and each of us drove our own bike on the way up there. And I led the convoy cause my friend didn’t know how to get there. I didn’t told him that I’m quite unfamiliar too with the road and the bends cause I’m really thrilled. Hahaha! I almost missed the bend where we should turn caused my eyes is locked on the white paint on the road. I didn’t wander my eyes anywhere cause it’s dark and the road is dangerous because of ravines, bends and the inclination of ascent and descent is quite dangerous for inexperienced drivers like me. Also it is quite spooky, the surroundings is like a location scene from a suspense movie where something will just pounce on you. Hahaha. I can’t believed I’ve done that by myself. I always get a friend to drive me especially long haul trips.
I am totally unprepared I thought we were just gonna fetch a friend but he told us that his mom won’t allow him to come with us so he insisted that we spend the night there since its already late.
It was nice, different kind of experience. We drank and talked al fresco outside their house which was in the bank of the river. Chirping of insects, the moonlight, fresh air laced with the scent of the sea. This seemed what I needed after a physically, mentally and emotionally tiring week.
We just came home 8 this morning after we ate the breakfast his nice father prepared for us.
I really need to do a lot of this to relax and unwind. Hmmm, maybe I gonna go fishing again with old friends like I used to do. Gotta do that.
Bye for now got to bring my bike to the motor shop for a check up and I need to pick up my sis afterwards.
Service and additional compensation August 18, 2006
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I was in a seminar workshop this morning. I was hesitant to go cause I felt belittled by their invitation. The phrase "be oriented on some basic library functions…" sounded insulting to me. They haven’t paid us a visit even though they stated it on their letter that they did.
I just learned this morning why did they stated that on their invitation. From all the librarians of extension campuses we were only three librarians by professions. I think were about 15-20 people in the room. Others are teaching faculty cum librarians. Another was teaching faculty cum guidance officer cum librarian. Wow I wondered how do she multitasked. Can’t blame them, they were just designated as librarians by their superior.
The Director of Library Services have asked me specifically about library automation when she learned that as part of my plans for my library. She let me skipped all the seatwork they prepared for the day. She then planned to talk to my Administrator to request my help in teaching the other library staff of two campuses by visiting them once a week.
Luckily after lunch there was a presentation of library software I’m interested in using for the library automation.
I didn’t stayed after the presentation. There’s no point in staying anymore. I planned to get my ass out of there after lunch but the seminar got my attention and that’s why I stayed.
About the help they need, I will say yes only if they provide me with a service and additional compensation. Hahaha! I’m not that demanding it’s just a hassle and costly having to commute and change ride twice. And also I have my library to take care of. 
My advice - go hire a professional librarian.
Tired August 17, 2006
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Yaiz, I took the morning off again. I didn’t slept at house last night. I got too drunk and slept on the friend’s computer shop. I woke up early but I can’t figure a way out of the shop so I decided to get back to sleep again. I felt some kind of tired, but from the inside.
I purposedly drink a lot last night to numb my feelings of the pain and to celebrate for the recent accreditation. There’s a good reason for me to celebrate but damn I really can’t, I felt somewhat is lacking. He should be there, they should be there.
I should shut my mouth about the particulars. 
It’s better this way, right Mr. NC?
Sandalan, thank you again for listening to my sentiments and being there for me when I needed help. Thanks.
